I love this Edwin McCain song entitled I Could Not Ask For More…

No reason in particular…I just love it…

Check it out…(gonna give you a link to its mp3 file, too)

“I Could Not Ask For More”

Edwin McCain

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I’m alive
These are the moments I’ll remember all my life
I found all I’ve waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I’ve waited for
And I could not ask for more

[Chorus]
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have’s come true
And right here in this moment is right where I’m meant to be
Here with you here with me

These are the moments I thank God that I’m alive
These are the moments I’ll remember all my life
I’ve got all I’ve waited for
And I could not ask for more

[Chorus]

I could not ask for more than the love you give me
‘Coz it’s all I’ve waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more

I just looove this track. It’s also music fom the motion picture Message in a Bottle (which also is a Nicholas Sparks novel).

[download song]

You don’t wanna know…

dont read

ok stop right here…

dont’ wanna stop??? well don’t blame me…

My gosh! I have got to shake this feeling off. As sure as the sun rises from the east, I should! I can’t believe it’s happening to me again.

What is it with me, anyway?!? Why does this blood-pumping organ always have to choose unwisely, huh?! Arrhhgg!

Blast it! I could write a million words right here right now…but why bother when all I wanna tell my heart is…CUT THE CRAP! It’s outta whack, you freakin’ heart!

Ok…don’t say I didn’t warn yah! Kasi naman eh…when I say don’t read..just don’t..hehehe…

p.s.

gapahungaw ra…pasenxa nah..lol! Ciao!

Deceit. In a relationship, it’s an idiosyncracy that I so genuinely despise. White lies are negligible. But cock-and-bull stories? Goodness! Man, that’s totally inexcusable! At least if you get it from someone you trust and love, it is. It destroys one of the very chief foundation of a relationship…trust.

I just can’t believe embarrassment could domineer one’s drive to be truthful. I mean, yes, at certain times it has to be like that. But when it’s uncalled-for…unnecessary..and when it could possibly break a bond that’s precious…has it really got to be like that?

Of course, you had a choice. I(and not just me) gave you the chance to speak out. To just..you know..spit it all out. And I know you know…that it(the truth) couldn’t have altered our relationship. If anything, it would’ve stregthened it, instead. But what? What choice did you make? You made it seem as if you were dealing with robots instead of humans. This brain isn’t programmed, for goodness’ sake! It knows how to assimilate..to distinguish what’s true from what’s not. Do I even have to tell you that?!

I just can’t help but feel betrayed from how everything is right now. Seems like I do not know what to believe anymore. I never thought there wasn’t enough trust in this bond. What is it, really?

What is it? Tell me. Tell me and spare me the bullshit this time.

I would ask you…one more time. And whatever you say, that’s it. ‘Cause even as I fume in this outburst, I still am giving you the benefit of the doubt. I haven’t fully closed it…at least not just yet. Don’t let me.

p.s.(to all who’ve read the entry)

You might have gone to some conclusions as you’ve read the blog entry..but I tell you this and this alone…IT’s NOT WHAT YOU THINK IT IS. IT’s NOT. Leave it like that, ok?

Hey, got a minute? Check out this Shall We Dance? OST by The Pussycat Dolls… Sway…
I love it! And I’m pretty sure you will, too. Enjoy! (Scherzinger sizzles, mann..whoo!)

I Finally Found Someone
Barbara Streisand & Brian Adams

I finally found someone, who knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one who makes me feel complete
It started over coffee, we started out as friends
It’s funny how from simple things, the best things begin

This time is different (la, la, la, la)
It’s all because of you (la, la, la, la)
It’s better than it’s ever been
Cuz we can talk it through
My favorite line was can I call you sometime?
It’s all you had to say
To take my breath away

This is it
Oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one to be with every night
Cause whatever I do
It’s just got to be you
My life has just begun, I finally found someone

Ooh, someone
I finally found someone
Ooh…

Did I keep you waiting (I didn’t mind)
I apologize (baby, that’s fine)
I would wait forever
Just to know you were mine
Ya know, I love your hair
(are you sure it looks right? )
I love what you wear
(isn’t it too tight)
You’re exceptional
I can’t wait for the rest of my life

Oh, this is it
Oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one to be with every night
Cause whatever I do
It’s just got to be you
(oh, yeah)
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
And whatever I do
It’s just got to be you
Ooh, my life has just begun…
I finally found someone

Life is a garbage can. Love? Just one of the trashes. But gosh, if you believe that, then you might as well join love inside the crap can and be one of the trashes as well. I am a person who has almost gone to the point of coming to believe in that notion. In fact, I do think I have been to that certain point already.

Most of my life, I have watched people in pairs come and go. I have been asked, both by others and by me..what is love? When do you know if it is love?

One afternoon, me and two of my friends were conversing on such headway. One of them has just broken up with her boyfriend. And I was interrogating her on how such irony took place when they were just so in love with each other. Or at least I thought and concluded so. Apparently, I thought and concluded wrong. (Or maybe not..I don’t know)

Some things aren’t just what they seem to be. Take love for an example. When you see two people looking into each other’s eyes…oh sooo tenderly…spellbound. When we see two lovers walk hand in hand along the beach. When we witness couples lock lips like as if they’ve just been bound with a bolt. When we see all of those things between couples, does it mean we see love automatically?

Possibly??? Yes. Automatically??? Definitely no. But then, I’m not gonna try to defend that cause it would mean giving out a definition of love, which isn’t really the point I’m trying to get to.(In fact, the point is somewhat the opposite)

You know what I told my friend, when she asked me when I’d know it’s love? I told her..I guess..when you know, uh..you just know. You don’t need eyes that tell you you mean the world to him, or a hand that makes you feel so secure, or lips to take you outta your head for a moment. You don’t need all of that to say…it is love…this is love.

On the contrary, you might not need all of that crap for you to prove that it is love, but you do need all of that crap to incite, flourish, and nurture the love. Ironic isn’t it?

Yes, I guess that’s what love’s mostly made of..irony. You believe it to be something, but you end up proving it is something else. Either something better, or something worse.

Arrgh! Look, I don’t really know if I’m getting anywhere or if I had gone somewhere with this blog entry that I’m trying to uh..write. (Would one call this writing?)

Well I guess all I’m trying to say is that…love is confusing. Confounding. Love is a mystery that almost everyone in this planet tries to solve. (And YES, I know you know that I’m talking about that kind of love) And oh, in that circle of almost everyone, myself is included.

Love is indeed such a puzzle. And this ain’t just any jigsaw, for the pieces aren’t laid out on the table. You…me…we are the ones who must provide the pieces for that puzzle. Ther isn’t any picture to follow too, for it is we who create our own picture with the pieces that we hold.

When the picture comes out, or when the puzzle is completed, so to speak, I think that’s when we all could say that..well..”there it is..I’ve just defined love, I believe”.

Oh, I am so damn baffling! But then I guess that’s how I am…baffled. Perplexed with love and its mystery. I long to solve that mystery. I long to be able to sing that song I posted on the early part of this entry. When I come to the point of singing (I mean reeeally sing) that song, I would be filled with fulfillment…victory for being able to solve the mystery…the puzzle of love. No other game of skill can be as challenging, as thought-provoking, as devastating, and as satisfying as the puzzle of love. Aim to solve it. It means aiming towards life…the real one.

There seems to be something explosive again in the world of Christianity. Question is…how authentic is it? And how can we be sure it isn’t just any plot of any anti-church org? Hmm…

Read on…

‘Gospel of Judas’ gives new view of Jesus’ betrayer

By Deborah Zabarenko Thu Apr 6, 5:06 PM ET

WASHINGTON (Reuters) – Judas Iscariot, vilified as Christ’s betrayer, acted at Jesus’ request in turning him over to the authorities who crucified him, according to a 1,700-year-old copy of the “Gospel of Judas” unveiled on Thursday.

In an alternative view to traditional Christian teaching, the Judas gospel shows the reviled disciple as the only one in Jesus’ inner circle who understood his desire to shed his earthly body.

“He’s the good guy in this portrayal,” said Bart Ehrman, a religion professor at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill. “He’s the only apostle who understands Jesus.”

The Judas gospel’s introduction says it is “the secret account of the revelation that Jesus spoke in conversation with Judas Iscariot.” Later, it quotes Jesus as saying to Judas, “You will exceed all of them (the other disciples) for you will sacrifice the man who clothes me.”

“The idea in this gospel is that Jesus, like all of us, is a trapped spirit, who is trapped in a material body,” Ehrman said. “And salvation comes when we escape the materiality of our existence, and Judas is the one who makes it possible for him to escape by allowing for his body to be killed.”

Rev. Donald Senior, president of Catholic Theological Union in Chicago, said the document revealed the diversity and vitality in early Christianity.

“The question becomes … does this tradition, this alternative story, if you like, in the gospel of Judas have a claim that in some sense is equal to the rival claim of the gospel tradition?” Senior said.

It is not known who wrote the Judas gospel. The copy unveiled on Thursday is of a document mentioned critically in the year 180 in a treatise called “Against Heresies,” written by Irenaeus, bishop of Lyon in what was then Roman Gaul. It spoke out against those whose views about Jesus differed from those of the mainstream Christian Church.

In the Bible’s New Testament, Judas is portrayed as the quintessential traitor, accepting 30 pieces of silver to betray Jesus by identifying him to Roman soldiers. The biblical Gospel of St. Matthew says Judas quickly regretted his treachery, returned the silver and hanged himself.

The New Testament contains four Gospels — of Matthew, Mark, Luke and John — but many more so-called apocryphal gospels were written in the first centuries after Christ’s death, attributed to such disciples as Thomas and Philip and to his female follower Mary Magdalene.

HIDDEN IN EGYPTIAN DESERT

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I left the house with such a bad mood. Call the cause “pagbibiro sa bagong gising“. I was so grumpy, really.

But on my way home, the mood was quite the opposite…I was beaming from ear to ear, actually. Hehe! And why’s that? Well let’s just say I got somethin’ that I really wanted to have…a copy of the musical Les Miserables. Yep yep yep! I got it already. Had to deal with the vendor so that I could afford the copy. I ended up getting a 30Php discount on the actual price. Ahihihi…nice catch, huh? (But it’s a pirated copy…tsk tsk..naughty me. Walay kwarta pampalit ug orig uy! Daaaah!)

This Les Miserables musical is actually the Les Miserables in Concert. As in the musical that swept the world. The one that was performed in by 250 of the most brilliantly celebrated stars(including my ever favorite Lea Salonga) in the spectacular 10th Anniversary Gala Concert at Royal Albert Hall, London held on October 8, 1995.

I can’t wait to watch this. But I can’t watch it right now coz I’ve got..like…3 or 4 other videos yet that would be due this Sunday. Gotta watch em first so I wouldn’t need to pay any fine. And right now…will do just that. Ciao!

The trailer of the movie regarding the 9/11 incident was pulled out from the theatre after having been commented by watchers as too upsetting. However, the makers of this movie stated that an honest and genuine portrayal was all that they were trying to pull. Softening the movie would also indicate a less real implication of the incident.Full story below.

Theater Pulls Trailer for ‘United 93′
Tuesday April 4 10:46 AM ET

A New York City movie theater has pulled the trailer for “United 93,” which chronicles in real time the hijacked United Airlines flight that crashed into a Western Pennsylvania field on Sept. 11.

The AMC Loews Lincoln Square 12 theater in Manhattan said it made the decision after viewers complained they found it too upsetting.

“I don’t think people are ready for this,” theater manager Kevin Adjodha said.

“One lady was crying,” Adjodha told Newsweek. “She was saying that we shouldn’t have played the trailer. That this was wrong.”

Universal Studios in Los Angeles, meanwhile, said it would go ahead with plans to show the trailer for the thriller, which is scheduled to open in theaters on April 28.

Adam Fogelson, Universal’s president of marketing, said the trailer would be shown only before R-rated movies or “grown-up” PG-13 ones.

“The film is not sanitized or softened, it’s an honest and real look” at the events of Flight 93, Fogelson told The New York Times in Tuesday editions. “If I sanitized the trailer beyond what’s there, am I suggesting that the experience will be less real than what the movie itself is? We as a company feel comfortable that it is a responsible and fair way to show what’s coming.”

“United 93″ is scheduled to make its world premiere on opening night at the Tribeca Film Festival in Manhattan.

The festival, which was created to help lower Manhattan recover economically from the attacks, begins April 25 and runs through May 7.

The trailer begins with images of passengers boarding the plane on a sunny morning, and builds to a disturbing scene that includes actual news video of a plane about to hit one of the World Trade Center towers. It then returns inside Flight 93 as terrorists begin hijacking it and a passenger calls his family to tell them of the impending disaster.

The Families of Flight 93 have said that Universal Pictures will donate 10 percent of the first three days’ grosses to the memorial.

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On the Net: http://www.united93movie.com

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Yet another movie I sure don’t wanna miss.

Les Misérables(the movie) sure is touching. Released 8 years ago, I never actually got the chance to check out the flick until now. Don’t know for what reason. Considering that the title bears quite a reputation in it.

It was great! Classics often times are what touch me deeply. I’ve read that the musical was way better than the movie. But hey, I haven’t seen the musical yet. I’d decide for myself once I do.

I’ve never known such forgiveness. I’ve never known such courage. I’ve never known such love.

Jean Vel-Jean. He was a man of despicability. One who was well-acquainted with poverty. And has therefore resulted to commiting crimes just so he’d survive in the cruel world he was living in. He ran away from the hellhole he was in. The place where law brought him in. And in the midst of his running away, fate brings him to a bishop. A bishop who taught him forgiveness. A bishop who brought him back to God.

I was particularly moved with that scene, actually. First part of the film and I found emotion knotted on my throat already.

It was nighttime. Vel-Jean needed a place to stay in and food to eat. And so the bishop, even after finding out who he actually was, unhesitatingly offered him both. And even as he was offered such charity, the thief in him still prevailed. He stole the silverware inside the chapel where he spent the night, sneaked out, even knocked the bishop off as he was caught. Ungrateful ahole he is! But all of it was for a reason. In the morning, he gets caught by the French guards and he was brought back to the chapel to be confronted with the bishop. I was expecting the clergyman to get back at him.(After all, Vel-Jean acted ungratefully the night before). But I wasn’t ready for what I heard from the bishop’s mouth…he defended the thief after all he’s done. He didn’t even take the silverware back…instead, he gave Vel-Jean more of the like! The thief was stunned(who wouldn’t be?).

When asked by Vel-Jean why he was doing such act, the bishop answered…”Jean Vel-Jean, my brother…you no longer belong to evil. With this silver, I brought your soul. I’ve ransomed you from fear and hatred. And now I give you back to God.” I don’t usually get so emotional on the any film’s first part but this one certainly got me.

And it was never the same for Vel-Jean. He became a respected mayor in a small town called Vigan. Touched people’s lives. Helped those in need.

But the story doesn’t of course end there. For even in his transformation, a policeman named Javert was constantly hunting him, trying to run him down. He seemed utterly obsessed on bringing Vel-Jean to his knees. He just doesn’t buy the idea of having a thief transform into a kind and forgiving man. He stubbornly believes that “reform is a discredited fantasy” and that “a wolf can wear sheep’s clothing but is still a wolf“. I resent such notion!

Contrary to what Javert believes in, a person always deserves a chance..a chance to make things right…a chance to go back to the Lord. No one ever has the right to convict us with any crime except God. Not even in a courtroom could one gurantee the deepest, most accurate judgment of a person’s being. God is the only one who knows us deeply and He, therefore, is the only one who could judge us corectly.

A single entry wouldn’t be enough to relay everything I’ve grasped from the film. That was just a slice of the whole.

Forgiveness. Patriotism. Courage. Love. Point of the movie taken! Loved it.

This season is a good time to clean up, I mean reeeally clean up this messed up pit I call a room. I will need to arrange stuff. Sort out all documents(so-called), throw out junk, label back-up cd’s, stack up books…everything to make this room look like that of a lady’s. Well, it does look like one on the outside…but once you find out what’s in the closets and drawers and how messed up they are, you sure are bound to change your mind. LoL!

My operation clean up has commenced yesterday and even up to now I still am trying to sort things out. I ain’t in a hospital tending a patient, nor am I in the streets sweeping dirt, but I certainly look like one. Thanks to this surgical mask that I gotta have on while cleaning. Allergic rhinitis, baby, that’s why. Dust is one allergen to this crazy malady. *roll eyes* If I don’t put on a mask(or any other stuff that’d cover my nose up), I’d be Rudalph, the rednose reindeer in a matter of seconds. Yup, in just seconds, I’d be sneezing a zillion times already. Haha! (But I wouldn’t be all haha’s each time the allergic reaction is at its peak)

Oh well…you think it’s just the room that needs some cleaning up? You wrong. Because this HD of mine could also use some defragmenting or/and disk and registry cleaning. It could use some sprucing up as well. There’s a zillion files in here that needs to be deleted. I’m almost out of space, baby! MP3, .mpeg and .avi files are what’s filling this up. (I’m an audio/video download freak and that suffices it). I just don’t know which ones to delete first. I switch playlists too often to ever consider deleting any of the music files in here. But I guess I gotta do it, anyway. I couldn’t afford to buy an extra HD for that matter. The least I could do is retrieve the music/vid files in the back-up cd’s. Poof! That’s a little inconvenient but uh, got no choice. Hmmph.

So, uh…that’s it for now Ciao