God may be unseen. But He is always…always around. In the air which keeps me alive. In the food which keeps me going. In the water that fills me. And in people like you who gives me a reason to say – life is more than just worth living, it is the most wondrous of gifts.

I’ve always wondered why it had to be you. Always wondered why it had to be difficult. Often bemoaned why at this time, being brave means letting go. I queried for possible reasons again and again. And among the many given back, there is only one that I find most meaningful – He meant for me to see love(?) in its most unconventionally deep sense. (That’s somewhat the safest way to say it. Haha!)

Life’s intricacies have been raining on me ever since the day this feeling announced its arrival. I’ve been around the same territory with you for quite some time but not even once did it dawn on me before that I could be capable of wagering my heart at such high risks. Gosh! But at least I managed to hold in check. It’s somewhat relieving to realize that I’ve never allowed my emotions to overrule my being. I never got out of me. Whew! But it’s only fair to say that it took an enormous amount of effort to do just that. (Just gotta do what’s right even if it hurts and even if it sucks.)

The ease at which you handle your life. The facile manner in which you carry your clout. Your unselfish drive to share what you have. Your deep passion for what you do, no matter the shift. And the humbleness you pose inspite of aaaallll your this’ and thats’…they all just carry me away. You do nothing, you do what you do, I look at you, and I just keep falling. And you don’t even know it. (And you don’t need to know it. Though sometimes, just for the pleasure you deserve to get out of this high regard that someone has for you, I wish you knew how much you inspire me. But then…haha…it’ll never come from me.)

It all goes down to one thing, then…a secret kept down to the very end. A love(?) that is meant to be synonymous to restraint for as long as earth exists.

But if you’ve read my eyes, and if you’re reading this, know one thing – I’ll always be grateful to the one above for letting me see Him in you. Always.

Thank you for you.

…and have fun…haha!!!
I love this flash file!

Honestly, I don’t have anything worthwhile to blog about right now. Haha!

I just miss posting something here though I know it hasn’t been that long since I last blogged. Geez…an addicted blogger, I must be.

Anywayz..hmm..like I said, there’s nothing much to say right now. Except that my legs are all muscle-ached ’cause of dance practices. Once again, I’m joining the modern dance team of our department for this year’s university intramual league. We won 3rd place last year. Hopefully, this year would be more promising for us. The dance is more complicated this time. More stunts in the routine, and gahd! I’m not exempted from doing one this time. Huhu! I’ve never done stunts(not even the veeery simplest ones) in any previous dance number I’ve been into. I’m working on it, though. It’s somehow a thrill to learn one, anyway.

What else…uhm…exam week’s comin’ up! As in midterm exams is comin’ up! Waaah! Bilis talaga ng panahon, sobra! It’s gonna be a busy two weeks for everyone in school.

And speaking of being busy, I gotta go now ’cause I’m supposed to be busy not on thinking of what else to blog about but on studying for tomorrow’s quiz. Hihi!

Au revoir, my friends. God bless!

p.s.
speaking of dance…I’d like to share this video of animated characters dancing to Usher’s Yeah. Believe me, you don’t wanna not watch this.

check it out…

Click [here] for a bigger view.

I got tagged yesterday by ladybug. And, just this morning, I got tagged again…this time, by Sir Denz.
So there’s two reposting and retagging that I gotta do. here they are…

FROM ladybug:

One book that changed your life. My experience as a reader hasn’t reached that point yet but I could say that it’s The Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom which had the greatest impact on me.

One book that I read more than once. Perfect by Judith McNaught. I don’t actually remember how many times I’ve read it…bout a hundred times, I think…haha! Nah..I’m just kiddin’…mga 99 times lang yun.

One book you would want on a desert island. Uhh…I dunno…something about marine life, most probably? Yeah…something like that.

One book that made you laugh.

One book that made you cry. A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Sparks. The book was the one reason why the movie didn’t make shed even a single tear.

One book that you wish had been written. How To Forget That You Ever Loved Him. Ha! Don’t tell me you were you still surprised.

One book that you wish had never been written. I’ll fill this in if I read one that makes me say it shouldn’t have been written.

One book you are currently reading. Angels and Demons by Dan Brown.

One book you have been meaning to read. The Alchemist by Paolo Coelho. Yep. You heard me right…I still haven’t read it yet. But I reeeeally really will!

AND FOR THIS, I’m TAGGING ANOTHER SET OF FIVE NAMELY…

(X) Sir Denz (X) Haha! Ikaw na pud, sir. And this warning/blackmail is only for you, too…If you don’t repost, you’ll have bad luck in about uhh..mabait ako eh..5 years lng..ahihihi! Peace, Sir Denz!

(X) Nick (X) Yo, buddy! Don’t think I’ve seen you do this yet. I don’t see a reason why I shouldn’t tag yah.

(X) Jae (X) Hello, Jae…I noticed you’ve been on a blog leave these past few days. Maybe this could be a reason to post an entry?

(X) Kendi (X) Ei there, Kendz. Taga! Hehe! How are things?

(X) Jona (X) Elow, Ate Jon…I just got ya tagged…

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FROM Sir Denz:

Here’s how it works.

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 3 sentences on your blog along with these instructions.
5. Don’t you dare dig for that “cool” or “intellectual” book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.
6. Tag three people.

Well, the nearest book I got right here is actually “Robert Langdon’s first adventure” — Angels and Demons by Dan Brown.

And here’s the next 3 sentences after the fifth:

After all, the four missing men were no ordinary cardinals. They were the cardinals. The chosen four.

And…that’s about it!

FOR THIS, I TAG:

(X) Alma (X)

(X) Lorei (X)

(X) Grace (X)

Tag along!

This heart is so stubborn…
it just won’t quit tolerating this foolish feeling.
Do away with it, will ya? Arrrrhg!

Fate is such a tease. Here I am, trying so damn hard to get the feeling off, starting to dry myself off the sensation that’s been awashing me. And then here comes this one morning, this one fateful morning when, as I was walking along that place, I almost bumped at you(literally..kay ngtxtx man gud, hapit hinuon nabangga..hehe!)…and then you look at me(how could you not..hapit gani ta nagbangga, di ba?). Simply glancing at me might have made me less ecsatic…but it wasn’t just a freakin’ glance you gave me…you intently looked…lingeringly so…straight into my eyes…as if some diamond were sprouting out from there and you wanted to make sure you were gonna get them firsthand. Haaai…

And how was I supposed to feel about that? Indifferent, of course. Passive. Unmoved. Cool.
Well, I could somehow give myself a pat on the back for appearing exactly just like that during that moment. I was able to unbelievably remain calm, composed, and cool as I greeted you hello. But heck, you never knew, my insides were on a hodgepodge as I was returning that stare of yours. Waaaaaaah! Kinsa ba gud dili malanay, uy!

Perfect timing, isn’t it? Grrr! I only wish I could be freely ecstatic about happenchances like that. But then I just couldn’t afford to. Not when I should be forgetting you. Forgetting that I ever almost fell for you.

Falling for you is like stabbing my own heart with a dagger and helplessly watching it bury deeper and onto the abyss.

I’m this, you’re…well…that. Nothing could change that fact. Not a melting smile, not a sparkling stare, and not a blissful sensation. It wouldn’t change now. Not tomorrow. Not in a million years.

Fate, stop teasing. And please, keep the dagger from burying deeper.